About Christina Bockisch

Christina Bockisch is a passionate advocate for mental health and believes that sharing her story is the best way to help break the stigma surrounding mental illness. When she's not writing for her blog, Christina enjoys participating in mud runs, spending time with her dog, baking cookies and watching Harry Potter or Star Wars marathons on TV.
1 09, 2018

He Never Hit You, But He Didn’t Have To

By |2018-09-09T22:01:47+00:00September, 1, 2018|Life, Mental Health|0 Comments

You’re being crazy and jealous. Loosen up. If you just did what I told you, I wouldn’t be mad. You need to stop hanging out with your friends and spend more time with me. You’re not being a good enough wife. I need more from you. If you leave, no one will ever love you as much as I do. You heard these things all the time. Every day, every week, every month. And it broke you. But you convinced yourself it wasn’t that bad. It’s not like he ever hit you. He was charming. Your parents loved how kind [...]

17 08, 2018

For Those Moments When Your Depression Makes You Want to Give Up

By |2018-09-01T17:46:58+00:00August, 17, 2018|Mental Health|0 Comments

Hey you, I know you’re hurting. And I know you’ve been hurting for a while. You’ve taken it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute for a long time now. And you’re tired. So tired. Tired of feeling this awful, tired of fighting so hard and tired of feeling like it’s never going to get better. I know you’re frustrated. You struggle to get out of bed, change your clothes, take a shower, clean your room, do the dishes, go to work and be productive. All the things that are so easy for everyone else have suddenly become [...]

13 02, 2018

Employee #1: One Year With Clariant Creative

By |2018-02-13T11:53:35+00:00February, 13, 2018|Life, Work|0 Comments

February 13, 2017. My first day at Clariant Creative. The decision to accept the job offer with Clariant Creative was – at first glance – just another job with a HubSpot agency. But boy was I wrong. When I accepted this role, I had another job offer on the table. In both situations, I’d be working for a HubSpot agency. One was a freelance lead nurturing role. The other was a full-time inbound marketing specialist role. Both had their pros and cons. Both were appealing in different ways. Honestly, I was terrified of making the wrong choice. But deep down, [...]

24 09, 2017

What I Mean When I Say I’m Scared of Mental Illness Recovery

By |2017-09-24T05:43:57+00:00September, 24, 2017|Mental Health|0 Comments

“Recovery is terrifying when you don’t know who you are without your sadness.” My bipolar 2 disorder, anxiety and eating disorder control my life most days. They lie to me, make decisions for me and make me feel the way they want me to. I try to change that. I want to change that. Don’t I? Some days, I don’t know anymore. Because the truth is: I’m absolutely terrified of mental illness recovery. I don’t want to feel this roller coaster of emotions anymore. I don’t want to spend two hours getting out of bed just to feel like there’s [...]

14 09, 2017

What I Want You to Remember During National Suicide Prevention Week

By |2017-09-16T08:25:55+00:00September, 14, 2017|Mental Health|0 Comments

I’ve been there – locked up in my room, sitting up against the wall, cradling my head in my hands as the tears continue to flow. Bright red face, runny nose, shaking hands and a headache that just won’t quit. I hear a voice so similar to my own telling me to end my life. And so I fight a war inside my head. Should I just give up? Or do I continue to fight? September 10-16, 2017, is National Suicide Prevention Week in the United States. While I’ve always used this week to speak up and share my story, [...]

10 09, 2017

Stay: World Suicide Prevention Day 2017

By |2017-09-10T11:12:25+00:00September, 10, 2017|Mental Health|0 Comments

Today – September 10th – marks World Suicide Prevention Day. For most people, it’s just another day. But to me, it’s a reminder of where I’ve been, where I am and where I still have left to go. It’s a reminder of the days I tried to end my life but lived. A reminder of the days I wanted to end my life but chose to stay. And so it seems fitting that To Write Love on Her Arms’ 2017 World Suicide Prevention Day campaign is Stay. Find what you were made for. Statistics About Suicide Last year, suicide rates [...]

5 08, 2017

How My Boss Helped Me Through the Worst Days of My Depression

By |2017-08-05T09:45:19+00:00August, 5, 2017|Mental Health|0 Comments

On February 13, 2017, I started a new job at a fully remote marketing agency. It was a job that allowed me to do the type of work I was passionate about – like copywriting, project management and marketing strategy – and it was the job I’d been hoping for since I lost my dream job at another agency eight months prior. When I got the job offer, I’d been out of work for four months. My savings account was almost drained, I was in a deep depression and I felt like a useless, worthless human being because I couldn’t [...]

1 08, 2017

Colossus at Savage Race Chicago and My Mental Health Journey

By |2017-07-31T22:01:33+00:00August, 1, 2017|Fitness, Mental Health|0 Comments

The hardest thing I’ve ever done was admitting I wasn’t okay and the emotional pain I was feeling wasn’t normal. It was calling a psychiatrist and asking for help. It was showing up to my first appointment, taking my medications and continuing to take my medications when the side effects felt like too much to bear. It was being strong when I was tired at hell. It was reaching out to people I trusted and being honest with them about how I felt on any given day. It was crying my eyes out, opening myself up and letting them see [...]

22 07, 2017

Chester Bennington’s Death Shattered My Recovery Mantra – But It’s Okay

By |2017-07-22T00:13:30+00:00July, 22, 2017|Life, Mental Health|0 Comments

  When I was first diagnosed with depression (now diagnosed as bipolar 2 disorder) and anxiety, I had absolutely no idea what to make of it. I knew I was sad all the time and had absolutely no desire to live, but I didn’t fully understand what it meant in terms or treatment or for the remainder of my teenage years. I turned to music as a way to cope with the overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. I listened to music every chance I got – on the bus, in class when teachers didn’t care, after school and in my room [...]

7 07, 2017

10 Things You Should Never Say to Someone With Depression

By |2017-07-06T22:46:14+00:00July, 7, 2017|Mental Health|0 Comments

Depression is not an easy thing to live with. It can be immobilizing, messy, lonely, unbearable and exhausting. Not to mention, it’s a rollercoaster of emotions. One minute, I feel fine, like I may actually make it through the day. But the next, I’m crying and completely falling apart. And as if struggling with depression isn’t hard enough, I’m constantly dealing with comments from people who don’t understand what it’s like to have a mental illness. Granted, it can be difficult to know what to say to someone with depression – especially when you’re caught up in the moment of [...]